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crazed_delusionI'm leaving to go to the dentist in about 15 minutes. I'm somewhere in between panic and anger.
The point of this trip to to convince him to pull out all of my teeth and give me dentures. This is a very large undertaking for someone 26 years old.
The fact is, it is the best for me for those who want my whole long story I'll put it under a cut.
To start with I, like all of us had a set of baby teeth, when those fell out another set grew in. These were not adult teeth, but basically another set of baby teeth. These also fell out after a few years. Now my "adult" set started to grow in. The problem they were not nearly as strong as normal adult teeth more like baby teeth. My dentist them thought that this set might also fall out and then I would get a real "adult" set. But during all of this I never had any teeth problems. I was about 16 when my teeth started to yellow, and it was when home whitening was so big so I did an at home treatment. It worked great but years later I would discovered that it was likely the beginning of my problems as it most likely ate away what little enamel I had to start with.
At age 18 I went into an extreme depressed and basically did not care for myself much at all, getting in the shower once a month would be a miracle. In that time my teeth basically seem to dissolve away and snap off like they were nothing, but I just ignored the blackening teeth and broken teeth because of lack of money and fear and lack of caring.
At 24 I finally had such extreme pain in a tooth I had to go to the ER, after that I went to the dentist who I think was amazed at how bad my teeth were at my age and set up a plan to fix them all. The total cost to "save" my teeth was over $30,000. At that time I just had the one painful tooth and my 4 wisdom teeth pulled under sedation.
Now I am 26, and am living with my parents and we finally sold the old flodded house and finally have some money I could use on my teeth.
I'm going to the dentist today get my work up and know that I will not be able to "save" my teeth because of cost. I'm going in knowing I will have to say that they all need to be pulled and get dentures.
On one hand I am relieved, as finally the pain will stop, and I will be able to actually eat (currently a lot of my eating is done by shoving food against my palate to smush it small enough and then swallowing it).
But I am also terrified. When I search about having so many pulled I see people talking about how you shouldn't have it done, that my age will be to young, I should do what I can and suffer doing one tooth at a time till I can afford to "save" my real teeth. But I know that isn't an option. My teeth are so bad I rarely talk to people because I don't want them to see, eating is horrible, I know that this is my best choice. Also I am terrified of the dentures. I read such horror stories about full dentures and think, what if the dentures are just as bad as my teeth are now.
But I do also tell myself, My aunt got dentures in her 30s, my grandmother in her 20s and my other grandmother in her 20s. I have a family history of this, and all of them have never had problems with their dentures.
I think this post is just a last minute me trying to calm myself, because I KNOW, I am going to have to fight him on this. They do not like doing this to people so young. And seriously even if I had 30k to "save" my teeth, I would just put that towards getting implants. I keep arguing with him in my head, playing out all the scenarios.
Ok *breathes* wish me luck and hope I return home with news that I get to have all my teeth pulled and I don't have to find another dentist to do it.
The point of this trip to to convince him to pull out all of my teeth and give me dentures. This is a very large undertaking for someone 26 years old.
The fact is, it is the best for me for those who want my whole long story I'll put it under a cut.
To start with I, like all of us had a set of baby teeth, when those fell out another set grew in. These were not adult teeth, but basically another set of baby teeth. These also fell out after a few years. Now my "adult" set started to grow in. The problem they were not nearly as strong as normal adult teeth more like baby teeth. My dentist them thought that this set might also fall out and then I would get a real "adult" set. But during all of this I never had any teeth problems. I was about 16 when my teeth started to yellow, and it was when home whitening was so big so I did an at home treatment. It worked great but years later I would discovered that it was likely the beginning of my problems as it most likely ate away what little enamel I had to start with.
At age 18 I went into an extreme depressed and basically did not care for myself much at all, getting in the shower once a month would be a miracle. In that time my teeth basically seem to dissolve away and snap off like they were nothing, but I just ignored the blackening teeth and broken teeth because of lack of money and fear and lack of caring.
At 24 I finally had such extreme pain in a tooth I had to go to the ER, after that I went to the dentist who I think was amazed at how bad my teeth were at my age and set up a plan to fix them all. The total cost to "save" my teeth was over $30,000. At that time I just had the one painful tooth and my 4 wisdom teeth pulled under sedation.
Now I am 26, and am living with my parents and we finally sold the old flodded house and finally have some money I could use on my teeth.
I'm going to the dentist today get my work up and know that I will not be able to "save" my teeth because of cost. I'm going in knowing I will have to say that they all need to be pulled and get dentures.
On one hand I am relieved, as finally the pain will stop, and I will be able to actually eat (currently a lot of my eating is done by shoving food against my palate to smush it small enough and then swallowing it).
But I am also terrified. When I search about having so many pulled I see people talking about how you shouldn't have it done, that my age will be to young, I should do what I can and suffer doing one tooth at a time till I can afford to "save" my real teeth. But I know that isn't an option. My teeth are so bad I rarely talk to people because I don't want them to see, eating is horrible, I know that this is my best choice. Also I am terrified of the dentures. I read such horror stories about full dentures and think, what if the dentures are just as bad as my teeth are now.
But I do also tell myself, My aunt got dentures in her 30s, my grandmother in her 20s and my other grandmother in her 20s. I have a family history of this, and all of them have never had problems with their dentures.
I think this post is just a last minute me trying to calm myself, because I KNOW, I am going to have to fight him on this. They do not like doing this to people so young. And seriously even if I had 30k to "save" my teeth, I would just put that towards getting implants. I keep arguing with him in my head, playing out all the scenarios.
Ok *breathes* wish me luck and hope I return home with news that I get to have all my teeth pulled and I don't have to find another dentist to do it.